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New Characters for "Fae Fire"

I have come up with a few new characters for my novel. I haven't quite decided what chapters they will end up in. However, the newest one 'Queen Querellia of Light and Fire' will be in the upcoming chapter. Can't have the Queen of the Fae just sitting about waiting her turn. I have decided to change a few of the plots around to make something a little more modern, something that screams BDSM, something that shouts 'bend me over and do me raw'. I think the new twist will really catch my readers and fans around the globe. I would really like to hear from my fans and readers, to know what they want to see in this novel. Give me a shout here on DList, MySpace or on yim.

Taking A Break

Well I have needed to take a break from working on "Fae Fire", as I have been working constantly on it and have had very little time for myself. As it stands I have had some things going on that I cannot let sit on the back burner. I have decided on two pictures for my cover, am still looking for an artist to come up with a few things for me, but my agent and the publishers are jerking me around on that. I might have to take it into my own hands and draw something myself, so much for making this a best seller! Because I can't draw to save my life.
I have a wedding to prepare for, my own. We still haven't made all the plans yet, but we have decided on a date and location for the proceedings. My fiance, Dan has picked this time next year for the date. And I have picked Oaxaca Mexico for the location. I don't know how we are going to get all of this taken care of in a year, but I have faith that we can pull it off. I am proud of the fact that he supports my career, and wants to help with this novel.
I should somehow manage to work that into the story, near chapter 25. ~make a note~.
I suppose that is enough of a update for today.

Chapters 1-3 and 4-5

I finished a quick rewrite of the first 3 chapters today, though most of it was just the minor details. Started working on the next 2 chapters a short while ago, it seems my characters decided they want them to be hard core porn! Why am I not surprised that this has become the norm when one hasn't been getting laid?
The story is progressing fabulously, with very few problems though I am having some difficulty keeping up with how many details I still have to add in. It seems with each new chapter I forget to add the descriptions of the characters and the places that I am creating. So much for being the great writer lol.
Anyway I am spending the day talking to my boyfriend and working on chapters 4 and 5 so that I can get at least the first 10 chapters done and caught up. So I've got a lot of work to do and still plenty of time to get it all done in.
So I will leave to gt all this done before the end of the day.

Working on my book entitled "Fae Fire"

I've been working on my book the last several months, and finally have my working title of "Fae Fire" I won't tell you what the story is about just yet, at least until I finish chapter 5. The characters are writing themselves, the way that they want, so it should make things a bit more interesting.
I've never finished a book that I have written before, and so far this is a work that will write itself for a change. I am just glad that I have managed not to rewrite the whole thing yet.
I woke up this morning and decided to do a rewrite of chapters 1 - 3, I felt that I needed to add some details that I neglected to add in when I first wrote them. There's always some last minute details that need to be put in to make it something great.
The main character, which I named after myself, brings an element to the story that I didn't think would work. I'm glad its coming along great.

Another Move and A New Life

Well last time I wrote, I believe I had moved to Indiana. Well I moved yet again, this time back to the heart of Texas. Not one of my proudest moments, but there you have it. I guess it takes a certain amount of resolve and will of spirit to move around the country like it isn't a big deal. Considering that every time I move, I encounter different things that even I can't really recount without forgetting some minor detail. However, this time I want to focus on the people that I met along the way.
While I was in Indiana, I met a few people that most would just look down their noses at. These people are the salt of the earth. Constantly struggling to survive, but working hard. I don't think I can say that about most people, though those folks in Indiana, work hard at their jobs and still struggle. Perhaps it is just me, growing up working my ass off to get to where I am.
Yet coming back to Texas, all I notice is how people complain about not having everything they want, yet refuse to work. I can't say that about everyone down here, but the vast majority do.
I start my life a new everytime I move someplace and I still haven't the faintest idea what the problem is. I say the same thing about finding a decent guy, because most of them turn out to be just like the rest. Is there one guy out there that isn't the same?

It's Been Awhile

27 October, 2008

It has been a while since I last posted, and I hope my fans can understand the reasons why. I don’t believe that I need to justify myself or even compromise myself in any way here. The reasons why I haven’t been able to post in the span of almost a year are both lame and inconsequential, yet on the same token are as true as having a cold. So if you will just take a moment I will explain what has occurred since my last post.
My ex boyfriend and I had patched up our differences or so I had thought, and got back together. Well at the time I thought it was something that I wanted, and could do. If you’re asking why I would do something like this, here’s your quick and painless answer. I believe in second chances, at least I thought it would be a good idea and gave it a try in the true attempt in believing in love. As it turns out I was wrong for actually trying to make the attempt in getting back together with the ex, because he hadn’t changed like he said he did. Again, why you ask. Because I believed blindly in second chances and thought it would be a good idea. Not one my brightest moments.
Well, we moved from Texas back to my home state of Wisconsin, where I thought things would get better for the both of us. Nope, again I was wrong. Stupid me. I mean things did get better for one of us, and I was on the wrong end of that stick. However, I did give it a go and put my best foot forward. This is where things got worse in the relationship for me. My dear ex, may he get a disease where his diddly turns black and falls in the toilet, decided it would be of some importance to cheat on me for the 7th time. Then two days later dumped me and moved on like the relationship didn’t mean anything.
Okay, I know some of you think I am still hung up on this guy. At a time I was, but have since then moved on myself. In fact I moved to Indiana, and started over. Yay me! Granted, since I have been here I have burned my bridges, and still look back with a pang of regret. Because now I have few real friends, and no one that I find interesting or attractive. I don’t regret the choices I’ve made, aside burning all my bridges. I think you understand some of that, but in truth, I am more alone now that I have ever been. Why? Well its no longer a matter of why. It’s more of a matter of where do I go from here. I have come far in the time since my last post, and I have come even further without anyone at my side. I don’t have any support or comfort. In fact all in all it has been very lonely, for me.
I think that since all this turmoil in my life, that if I were dating some guy, I would have ended up hurting someone that I care about even more. Just know that if you were in my situation that what I say now is more than truth. I don’t like knowing that I have hurt someone because of actions I have taken, or by things that I have said. Too many people have been hurt by what I have said and done in the last couple of weeks. And now its time to turn around and tell everyone that I am sorry. Granted apologizing is something that I don’t do anymore, because everyone has their reasons for saying or doing something that they know they have to do. I have followed my heart and done what I needed to do to get where I am now.
If given the opportunity, I would have done it all differently of course. But would I be happy with what I have done then? I don’t think that I can say. I know that I have done these things now, and am glad that I used an approach that would have been easier. No, it wasn’t as easy as I say, it was harder than hell to do what I had to do, and I shed all my tears. I guess you can say the experiences since the last post has hardened me, and made me into a person that isn’t exactly what I would want for someone like myself.
So now I am living in Indiana, which is not exactly where I would want to be. But once again I am putting my best foot forward and making the attempt to have a better life for myself. I had started to make friends here, but once again I find myself burning more bridges.
In my MySpace blog, they read some things that they took personally, like I openly attacked them. Here’s the breakdown of what I wrote there, the way I meant it, not how it looks. I said that I am tired of being alone, I am tired of being hurt and misled. That I don’t need sympathy, or false hope. I want honest people that aren’t going to betray me later. The way these people took it was that I am a cold hearted bitter bitch, who doesn’t need anyone in my life ever, and that anyone trying can kiss my ass. I do not regret writing any of it.
Isn’t sad to assume? I think so too. Well those people decided to part my company and never speak to me again. Fine by me, just don’t let the door hit you on the ass on the way out, cause I don’t want ass prints on my door! I don’t need false friends, simply put. Those that didn’t take it the wrong way were slightly offended of course, and I can’t blame them. I just won’t apologize for it.
Anyway, I needed to say all that, and hope that I didn’t offended anymore people with what I write, since what I have written is the truth at least from my stand point. If you don’t agree I won’t hold it against you, that’s what God is for. Just kidding.
I have lost so much, a lot of which is nothing more than material things that can be replaced if they are so important to me. But most of all, I have lost myself, I lost who I am and what I have become because of all this. And I wish that I hadn’t compromised myself for a guy that I had thought I loved. I guess I had to learn that believing isn’t the same thing as being true to myself. I would have thought that I was doing what I believed to be right, and in the end just ended up laying down and letting myself be walked on. I know that sounds rather bad, but in the end it is all I could do.
I just want people to understand my situation, and not give me pity or false hope. I would rather have people give their support and advice. But what the hell, I try to make do with my own opinions than anything else.
For the moment, I want to say that this is a series of interlinking posts. And that some of these will be light natured and some quite serious. But all of them have a point to them. I would like to point out that for the time being the point of this one and the following posts, are about trust.

In Loving Memory

My dear grandmother passed away on Saturday. This woman taught me many things in life, all of which I am indebted to her for. The only thing that plagues my mind still is that, due to her failing health, she couldn't tell anyone the things that she wanted to say. Bless her wise Dagdha and loving Danu.
I will miss her very much, as she was wise beyond her years, even in middle age. However that wouldn't have stopped her from telling everyone that crossed her path what she truly thought of them. I take after her in that respect. But mostly, the thing that I will miss the most about this dear woman is that I will never get to share the moments when we were truly one being. Quietly sitting around being at peace with the Otherworld, or the moments when she taught me about herbs. I love you gran, and will await your return at Samhain, when I will feast with you again.