Of all the things that I long for,
I cannot have.
Though my heart still longs
To hold to.
The mistakes I've made
That I cannot unmake.
I hope one day to look back
And hope that its not too late
22 September 2010
05 November 2009
The events at Fort Hood
For those of you that paid attention to the news today, there was something truly devestating, very close to home. I live less then 5 minutes away from the U.S.'s largest and safest armored military base. Well obviously, its not that safe if something like this took place. I want to point out that I strongly believe this was a terrorist attack, perpetrated by 3, yes count them, 3 US soldiers!
It was an eventuality that should have been planned for, but alas not everything can be thought out and planned for. At this very moment I do hope all the people I know on post here are alive and well. And ask that all my readers pray for the victims of this aweful attack.
"FORT HOOD (November 5, 2009)—Fort Hood remains on lockdown late Thursday afternoon after a shooting that apparently involved three soldiers that left 12 people dead and 31 more injured.
Fort Hood Commander Lt. Gen Bob Cone said at a news conference late Thursday afternoon that one shooter was killed and two suspects were apprehended on Thursday.
He said they are all U.S. soldiers.
ABC News indentified the shooter as Maj. Malik Hassan.
Cone said all the casualties occurred at about 1:30 a.m. at the base's Soldier Readiness Center in the post’s Sports Dome where soldiers who are about to be deployed or who are returning undergo medical screening.
He said the primary shooter used two handguns in the attack.
Witnesses, however, said more than one soldier opened fire.
Earlier reports indicated there were shootings in at least two separate locations, but Cone said all of the victims were in the processing center.
One of the dead is a civilian police officer, Fort Hood confirmed.
All available ambulances and paramedics in the area responded to the post.
Some of the wounded were taken to Darnall Army Medical Center and others were flown or taken by ambulance to Scott & White Hospital in Temple.
Scott & White confirmed it is operating under a mass casualty protocol.
Killeen elementary schools on post released students before the shooting, but children who were in after school programs on the campuses will be held at the schools until further notice from Fort Hood, the district said.
Middle schools on post are holding students until notice from Fort Hood.
Students who would normally be taken from off-post schools to Fort Hood are being held at schools, as well.
Central Texas College’s central campus is now on lockdown.
The school said a decision would be made about evening classes.
Updates will be posted on the school’s Web site.
Temple ISD reports schools are on a "soft" lock down in connection with the Fort Hood.
"Temple Police Department requested Temple ISD place all campuses and district buildings in a soft lockdown, due to a situation at Fort Hood, TISD spokesperson Regina Corley told News 10 by news release.
"We have been directed to follow our regular dismissal schedule," Corley said in a follow-up release.
Temple Police Sgt. Brad hunt told News 10 police units have been dispatched to all schools and Scott and White Hospital.
Hunt said parents should expect delays because of lockdown.
Fort Hood is also locked down and no one was being allowed on or off post.
An alert posted on the Fort Hood Web site says, "Effective immediately Fort Hood is closed."
The Web site said that units at the base have been ordered to account for all personnel.
The site says, "This is not a Drill. It is an Emergency Situation."
Rep. John Carter, R-Round Rock, said a graduation was underway on post at the time of the shooting.
President Barack Obama called a mass shooting at a Texas Army base a "horrific outburst of violence."
He said he doesn't yet know all the details but promised the government would get "answers to every single question."
The commander in chief says it's a tragedy to lose a soldier overseas and even more horrifying when they come under fire at an Army base on American soil.
Obama also said his thoughts and prayers are with the wounded and families of the fallen.
Rep. Chet Edwards, D-Waco, issued a statement in which he said, “The soldiers and families of Fort Hood have served our nation with distinction and made tremendous sacrifices for all of us so I am heart-broken to learn that this terrible tragedy has occurred.
“My family’s thoughts and prayers go out to all the victims and loved ones.”
Sen. Kay Bailey Hutchison, R-Texas, said she was shocked and saddened by the violence.
“Our dedicated military personnel have sacrificed so much in service to our country, and it sickens me that the men and women of Fort Hood have been subjected to this senseless, random violence. I know all Americans share this concern for the soldiers and their families who are affected by this tragedy,” she said."
It was an eventuality that should have been planned for, but alas not everything can be thought out and planned for. At this very moment I do hope all the people I know on post here are alive and well. And ask that all my readers pray for the victims of this aweful attack.
"FORT HOOD (November 5, 2009)—Fort Hood remains on lockdown late Thursday afternoon after a shooting that apparently involved three soldiers that left 12 people dead and 31 more injured.
Fort Hood Commander Lt. Gen Bob Cone said at a news conference late Thursday afternoon that one shooter was killed and two suspects were apprehended on Thursday.
He said they are all U.S. soldiers.
ABC News indentified the shooter as Maj. Malik Hassan.
Cone said all the casualties occurred at about 1:30 a.m. at the base's Soldier Readiness Center in the post’s Sports Dome where soldiers who are about to be deployed or who are returning undergo medical screening.
He said the primary shooter used two handguns in the attack.
Witnesses, however, said more than one soldier opened fire.
Earlier reports indicated there were shootings in at least two separate locations, but Cone said all of the victims were in the processing center.
One of the dead is a civilian police officer, Fort Hood confirmed.
All available ambulances and paramedics in the area responded to the post.
Some of the wounded were taken to Darnall Army Medical Center and others were flown or taken by ambulance to Scott & White Hospital in Temple.
Scott & White confirmed it is operating under a mass casualty protocol.
Killeen elementary schools on post released students before the shooting, but children who were in after school programs on the campuses will be held at the schools until further notice from Fort Hood, the district said.
Middle schools on post are holding students until notice from Fort Hood.
Students who would normally be taken from off-post schools to Fort Hood are being held at schools, as well.
Central Texas College’s central campus is now on lockdown.
The school said a decision would be made about evening classes.
Updates will be posted on the school’s Web site.
Temple ISD reports schools are on a "soft" lock down in connection with the Fort Hood.
"Temple Police Department requested Temple ISD place all campuses and district buildings in a soft lockdown, due to a situation at Fort Hood, TISD spokesperson Regina Corley told News 10 by news release.
"We have been directed to follow our regular dismissal schedule," Corley said in a follow-up release.
Temple Police Sgt. Brad hunt told News 10 police units have been dispatched to all schools and Scott and White Hospital.
Hunt said parents should expect delays because of lockdown.
Fort Hood is also locked down and no one was being allowed on or off post.
An alert posted on the Fort Hood Web site says, "Effective immediately Fort Hood is closed."
The Web site said that units at the base have been ordered to account for all personnel.
The site says, "This is not a Drill. It is an Emergency Situation."
Rep. John Carter, R-Round Rock, said a graduation was underway on post at the time of the shooting.
President Barack Obama called a mass shooting at a Texas Army base a "horrific outburst of violence."
He said he doesn't yet know all the details but promised the government would get "answers to every single question."
The commander in chief says it's a tragedy to lose a soldier overseas and even more horrifying when they come under fire at an Army base on American soil.
Obama also said his thoughts and prayers are with the wounded and families of the fallen.
Rep. Chet Edwards, D-Waco, issued a statement in which he said, “The soldiers and families of Fort Hood have served our nation with distinction and made tremendous sacrifices for all of us so I am heart-broken to learn that this terrible tragedy has occurred.
“My family’s thoughts and prayers go out to all the victims and loved ones.”
Sen. Kay Bailey Hutchison, R-Texas, said she was shocked and saddened by the violence.
“Our dedicated military personnel have sacrificed so much in service to our country, and it sickens me that the men and women of Fort Hood have been subjected to this senseless, random violence. I know all Americans share this concern for the soldiers and their families who are affected by this tragedy,” she said."
15 October 2009
Swim Meet (story)
I went to an all guys academy before I went off to university, everywhere I turned I was surrounded by hot guys. Sure some of them were prudes; though I knew that some of them like to get their freak on. All year long, I had to endure that I was surrounded by hot guys, and that I couldn’t do anything with any of them. Our school was strict about sexual fraternization, I didn’t want to risk expulsion, but this was bordering on sexual frustration to the point of insanity.
Takashi, was the captain of the swim team and my roommate, so it was natural for me to be obsessed with him. He had the body of a swimmer, where as I had the body of a dancer, we were like yin and yang. I suppose were exact opposites, however, we got along quite well. Where he was quite and well mannered, I was a little loud and a bit rude as well.
One night, when we were cramming for exams, we got bored and decided to go to the pool near our dorms for a swim. It was, of course, my idea. I knew that Takashi would go along with it, because he would do almost anything to be in water. We grabbed our swim gear, and I brought shampoo and conditioner as well before we headed down to the Aquatics Center.
The pool was empty of people, since it was late and most of the other students would still be studying or out on dates. Takashi and I would have the pool to ourselves, which was nice since it meant that there wouldn’t be people yelling or screaming. It also gave me the opportunity to watch Takashi change and shower without someone trying to protest.
I sat down on the bench in the locker room, so that I put our shower gear in a small locker. Takashi sat down next to me so that he could take off his shoes and socks, mine were already in the locker. When I turned around to take my jeans and shirt off, Takashi was already nude and folding his clothes neatly to maximize space in the locker. I couldn’t help but look him up and down like a dog with a juicy steak. He must have noticed me staring, cause he looked over at me as he slid his hand over his dick.
“Hiroshi, what are you looking at?” Takashi asked me shyly.
“A, shitsuerai Takashi” I apologized for my rudeness. He was the only person I would apologize to for being rude.
Takashi, knew for a fact now that I was attracted to him, so he was going to take full advantage of it. He was tall, for a Japanese male, standing at a full six foot two inches. He kept his hair long and shaggy in the emo style, it was a dirty blonde almost a sandy brown. It looked good on him, it complimented my short reddish hair. The carpets didn’t match the drapes, because he had wood floors. His dick was thick, and curved slightly to the right, at seven and a half inches. This wasn’t the first time that I’ve seen him naked, but it was the first time that I have seen his dick resting against this heavy balls. I wanted to drop to my knees right there and suck it and swallow his cream.
I was finally nude as well, I turned around so that he wouldn’t be staring at my tight little bubble butt. Sure, it would have been more entertaining to bend over and slowly glide my hands up my body like a stripper at one of the Host Clubs, so he could see my tight little asshole flex for him. But this would have to do. I looked over at him and saw his eyes flicker over my dick. His reaction made me blush massively, as I slid my hand gently over my flat stomach down to my newly shaven eight inch cock. When I looked into Takashi’s eyes, I grabbed my swim gear and headed to the showers.
Takashi followed closely behind me, close enough that I could have felt his breath on my neck. I would have stopped so that he would have been forced to bump into me, but I couldn’t play hard to get that way. I was almost certain that he knew what I wanted, and it sure wasn’t a dip in the pool.
“Why are you standing so close Takashi?” I asked over my shoulder with a devilish grin on my face.
“Just trying to get you to walk faster.” he said with a hint of a chuckle.
It seemed that I wasn’t the only one that wanted to skip the pretense of the pool, but I wanted to be in the water just as badly. This was going to be fun.
The showers were just like any other shower area at a pool. A single large room with shower heads protruding from the walls. In the back of the room, there were stalls with shower curtains that were big enough for two people to share and conserve water. I motioned for Takashi to join me in one since we were the only ones here, and it would save time to share a shower. Everything in the shower stall was done in beautiful mosaic, depicting, water and swimming. Nice theme work, I suppose if you were into that.
I followed Takashi into the stall and pulled the curtain closed behind us, while he turned on the water. We shared the water, as I ran my Speedo under the water and let the water play over my skin. Takashi followed suit, putting his swim cap and goggles under the water before stepping under the torrent of water himself. I stepped back and watched the water glide down his tight swimmers body. How I longed to be that water right now, sliding down his body, down his chest to drip off his dick.
When he was wet enough, he turned the water off and slid his Speedo on, having to adjust his cock so that it looked like the swimsuit was painted on. I did the same, though when I slid my cock inside the tight material, I had to make sure my cock went along to the right, otherwise my dick would stick out of the top of my swimsuit.
Takashi struggled not to start laughing, when I turned around and my dick popped out of my Speedo. I looked down and started laughing out right, because it was really hilarious to see. The look on my face showed defeat, but Takashi came to stand in front of me. He was gentle as he grabbed my dick firmly, and slid it back into my Speedo in such a way that it wouldn’t pop out if I moved too much.
“Arigato Takashi.” I managed to say without blushing. I savored the touch of his hand on my dick, his hands were soft and smooth, like the rest of him. It was very hard not to get a hard on, from him touching me, and I fought against it.
“No worries Hiroshi, it happens a lot.” he replied with a disarming smile on his face.
The pool was Olympic size, mainly for competitions that frequently took place once every couple of weeks. It was also Takashi’s second home, he spent a lot of time in the water, practicing and training. I waited by the edge of the pool for a few moments before diving in followed by Takashi. I swam a few laps, just to get my heart pounding while Takashi watched.
This was why Takashi loved swimming, it cleared his head and let him be at peace. It was a great feeling, as I swam over to where Takashi waited quietly. He had positioned himself in a corner with his arms stretch back over the edge of the pool, watching me intently. I could have continued swimming laps, but I had something else on my mind, and I was sure that Takashi knew what that was as well.
When I reached Takashi, I propped an arm on the edge of the pool, and looked at him while I took a moment to relax. The water was quite nice, it wasn’t too cold or too warm. Just the way I liked it, which meant the water wouldn’t make my dick shrink.
“What’s the matter?” I asked Takashi. I could tell from the look on his face that something was working around in his mind, and I seriously wanted to find out what it was.
“There’s nothing the matter, I was just watching you swim.” he replied cheerfully.
I looked at him as he turned his head away from me. His profile showed me just how beautiful he truly was, so I leaned in and licked his neck teasingly.
“Hiroshi, what are you doing?!” he said in surprise and shock.
I didn’t know what to say, I was shocked at what I had just done. Takashi had the look of horror on his face, which melted into a devilish grin. That made me feel less like an idiot, but not by much.
“I’m only joking Hiroshi, how did you know I like being licked?” he said questioningly.
I had to look him in the eye to know he was telling the truth, then again I knew that most swimmers like being licked. I still savored the taste of him on my tongue, he tasted like fruit with a hint of soy sauce. It was like an aphrodisiac, so intoxicating that I wanted more much, much more. Takashi must have been following my train of thought for he leaned into me and started teasing my lips with his tongue and teeth.
While he had me distracted, he managed to get me pressed into the corner that he had previously occupied. I didn’t fight it, in fact I was eager to see what he was going to do next. I grabbed his hips and pulled him tight against me, so that way I could feel his dick against mine. Takashi took that as an invitation to start grinding against me, trying to make me hornier with just the feel of him that close against me. I closed my eyes and parted my lips slightly, giving him access to my mouth with his tongue. Takashi slid his small wet tongue between my parted lips, along the front of my teeth. It was a passionate, yet taboo kiss, the kind you only see in Yakuza porn.
I slid an arm around his waist, and grabbed a handful of his ass. The lycra that stretched over his tight cheeks, like a second skin, made his ass feel tighter and more muscular. It begged to be bitten, grabbed and squeezed. Takashi continued to probe my mouth with his warm tongue, I slid my tongue over his and across his upper lip. I teased his mouth with quick flicks of my tongue, sliding it over each of his teeth and along the inside of his cheek. He moaned softly inside my mouth, which turned me on even more.
I was beginning to think that I had opened a can of worms, that I should have left alone. However, this was the most fun I’ve had since I came to Tokyo Central Academy. Takashi ran his hand slowly down my back, and into my Speedo. My breath caught for a moment when his fingers graced the curve of my ass. Opening my eyes partially so that I could see the expression on Takashi’s face. His eyes were still shut, when I caught a glimpse of him. There was a quiet grin growing up his face, as if he knew I was peeking at him.
I snaked my fingers into the waistband of his skin tight swimsuit, so that I could feel more of his skin against mine. He leaned into my fingers trying to press himself into me, as we broke the deeply torrid kiss. Takashi gave me the opportunity to hone in on his perfect dime size nipples, they begged to be licked and sucked on. I took the opportunity that presented itself, as I leaned in and closed my mouth over one of his perky nipples. I slowly worked his tit with my eager tongue. I worked that one nipple, taking my time with it, working it with both my teeth and my tongue until he started moaning loudly. He was close to begging me to swallow his cock, I was just working my way to that and he would just have to be patient…
Takashi, was the captain of the swim team and my roommate, so it was natural for me to be obsessed with him. He had the body of a swimmer, where as I had the body of a dancer, we were like yin and yang. I suppose were exact opposites, however, we got along quite well. Where he was quite and well mannered, I was a little loud and a bit rude as well.
One night, when we were cramming for exams, we got bored and decided to go to the pool near our dorms for a swim. It was, of course, my idea. I knew that Takashi would go along with it, because he would do almost anything to be in water. We grabbed our swim gear, and I brought shampoo and conditioner as well before we headed down to the Aquatics Center.
The pool was empty of people, since it was late and most of the other students would still be studying or out on dates. Takashi and I would have the pool to ourselves, which was nice since it meant that there wouldn’t be people yelling or screaming. It also gave me the opportunity to watch Takashi change and shower without someone trying to protest.
I sat down on the bench in the locker room, so that I put our shower gear in a small locker. Takashi sat down next to me so that he could take off his shoes and socks, mine were already in the locker. When I turned around to take my jeans and shirt off, Takashi was already nude and folding his clothes neatly to maximize space in the locker. I couldn’t help but look him up and down like a dog with a juicy steak. He must have noticed me staring, cause he looked over at me as he slid his hand over his dick.
“Hiroshi, what are you looking at?” Takashi asked me shyly.
“A, shitsuerai Takashi” I apologized for my rudeness. He was the only person I would apologize to for being rude.
Takashi, knew for a fact now that I was attracted to him, so he was going to take full advantage of it. He was tall, for a Japanese male, standing at a full six foot two inches. He kept his hair long and shaggy in the emo style, it was a dirty blonde almost a sandy brown. It looked good on him, it complimented my short reddish hair. The carpets didn’t match the drapes, because he had wood floors. His dick was thick, and curved slightly to the right, at seven and a half inches. This wasn’t the first time that I’ve seen him naked, but it was the first time that I have seen his dick resting against this heavy balls. I wanted to drop to my knees right there and suck it and swallow his cream.
I was finally nude as well, I turned around so that he wouldn’t be staring at my tight little bubble butt. Sure, it would have been more entertaining to bend over and slowly glide my hands up my body like a stripper at one of the Host Clubs, so he could see my tight little asshole flex for him. But this would have to do. I looked over at him and saw his eyes flicker over my dick. His reaction made me blush massively, as I slid my hand gently over my flat stomach down to my newly shaven eight inch cock. When I looked into Takashi’s eyes, I grabbed my swim gear and headed to the showers.
Takashi followed closely behind me, close enough that I could have felt his breath on my neck. I would have stopped so that he would have been forced to bump into me, but I couldn’t play hard to get that way. I was almost certain that he knew what I wanted, and it sure wasn’t a dip in the pool.
“Why are you standing so close Takashi?” I asked over my shoulder with a devilish grin on my face.
“Just trying to get you to walk faster.” he said with a hint of a chuckle.
It seemed that I wasn’t the only one that wanted to skip the pretense of the pool, but I wanted to be in the water just as badly. This was going to be fun.
The showers were just like any other shower area at a pool. A single large room with shower heads protruding from the walls. In the back of the room, there were stalls with shower curtains that were big enough for two people to share and conserve water. I motioned for Takashi to join me in one since we were the only ones here, and it would save time to share a shower. Everything in the shower stall was done in beautiful mosaic, depicting, water and swimming. Nice theme work, I suppose if you were into that.
I followed Takashi into the stall and pulled the curtain closed behind us, while he turned on the water. We shared the water, as I ran my Speedo under the water and let the water play over my skin. Takashi followed suit, putting his swim cap and goggles under the water before stepping under the torrent of water himself. I stepped back and watched the water glide down his tight swimmers body. How I longed to be that water right now, sliding down his body, down his chest to drip off his dick.
When he was wet enough, he turned the water off and slid his Speedo on, having to adjust his cock so that it looked like the swimsuit was painted on. I did the same, though when I slid my cock inside the tight material, I had to make sure my cock went along to the right, otherwise my dick would stick out of the top of my swimsuit.
Takashi struggled not to start laughing, when I turned around and my dick popped out of my Speedo. I looked down and started laughing out right, because it was really hilarious to see. The look on my face showed defeat, but Takashi came to stand in front of me. He was gentle as he grabbed my dick firmly, and slid it back into my Speedo in such a way that it wouldn’t pop out if I moved too much.
“Arigato Takashi.” I managed to say without blushing. I savored the touch of his hand on my dick, his hands were soft and smooth, like the rest of him. It was very hard not to get a hard on, from him touching me, and I fought against it.
“No worries Hiroshi, it happens a lot.” he replied with a disarming smile on his face.
The pool was Olympic size, mainly for competitions that frequently took place once every couple of weeks. It was also Takashi’s second home, he spent a lot of time in the water, practicing and training. I waited by the edge of the pool for a few moments before diving in followed by Takashi. I swam a few laps, just to get my heart pounding while Takashi watched.
This was why Takashi loved swimming, it cleared his head and let him be at peace. It was a great feeling, as I swam over to where Takashi waited quietly. He had positioned himself in a corner with his arms stretch back over the edge of the pool, watching me intently. I could have continued swimming laps, but I had something else on my mind, and I was sure that Takashi knew what that was as well.
When I reached Takashi, I propped an arm on the edge of the pool, and looked at him while I took a moment to relax. The water was quite nice, it wasn’t too cold or too warm. Just the way I liked it, which meant the water wouldn’t make my dick shrink.
“What’s the matter?” I asked Takashi. I could tell from the look on his face that something was working around in his mind, and I seriously wanted to find out what it was.
“There’s nothing the matter, I was just watching you swim.” he replied cheerfully.
I looked at him as he turned his head away from me. His profile showed me just how beautiful he truly was, so I leaned in and licked his neck teasingly.
“Hiroshi, what are you doing?!” he said in surprise and shock.
I didn’t know what to say, I was shocked at what I had just done. Takashi had the look of horror on his face, which melted into a devilish grin. That made me feel less like an idiot, but not by much.
“I’m only joking Hiroshi, how did you know I like being licked?” he said questioningly.
I had to look him in the eye to know he was telling the truth, then again I knew that most swimmers like being licked. I still savored the taste of him on my tongue, he tasted like fruit with a hint of soy sauce. It was like an aphrodisiac, so intoxicating that I wanted more much, much more. Takashi must have been following my train of thought for he leaned into me and started teasing my lips with his tongue and teeth.
While he had me distracted, he managed to get me pressed into the corner that he had previously occupied. I didn’t fight it, in fact I was eager to see what he was going to do next. I grabbed his hips and pulled him tight against me, so that way I could feel his dick against mine. Takashi took that as an invitation to start grinding against me, trying to make me hornier with just the feel of him that close against me. I closed my eyes and parted my lips slightly, giving him access to my mouth with his tongue. Takashi slid his small wet tongue between my parted lips, along the front of my teeth. It was a passionate, yet taboo kiss, the kind you only see in Yakuza porn.
I slid an arm around his waist, and grabbed a handful of his ass. The lycra that stretched over his tight cheeks, like a second skin, made his ass feel tighter and more muscular. It begged to be bitten, grabbed and squeezed. Takashi continued to probe my mouth with his warm tongue, I slid my tongue over his and across his upper lip. I teased his mouth with quick flicks of my tongue, sliding it over each of his teeth and along the inside of his cheek. He moaned softly inside my mouth, which turned me on even more.
I was beginning to think that I had opened a can of worms, that I should have left alone. However, this was the most fun I’ve had since I came to Tokyo Central Academy. Takashi ran his hand slowly down my back, and into my Speedo. My breath caught for a moment when his fingers graced the curve of my ass. Opening my eyes partially so that I could see the expression on Takashi’s face. His eyes were still shut, when I caught a glimpse of him. There was a quiet grin growing up his face, as if he knew I was peeking at him.
I snaked my fingers into the waistband of his skin tight swimsuit, so that I could feel more of his skin against mine. He leaned into my fingers trying to press himself into me, as we broke the deeply torrid kiss. Takashi gave me the opportunity to hone in on his perfect dime size nipples, they begged to be licked and sucked on. I took the opportunity that presented itself, as I leaned in and closed my mouth over one of his perky nipples. I slowly worked his tit with my eager tongue. I worked that one nipple, taking my time with it, working it with both my teeth and my tongue until he started moaning loudly. He was close to begging me to swallow his cock, I was just working my way to that and he would just have to be patient…
13 May 2009
So there I was...
And you thought this was going to be something sexual, pervs! LOL!! It's been awhile since I last wrote and decided to play a little catch up with my readers. Nothing exciting going on, I'm working on yet another talent I have with graphics, which is working really really well.
More to come later
More to come later
14 March 2009
A poem that I wrote
This is a song really that I wrote to play on my harp. I've been composing the melody for it, and just thought I would share this with you.
The Long Years
Don’t turn away, please let me explain
It is hard to be this far away from home
Its causing me so much pain
So far away from you, I am so alone
Passions could spiral to the sky
Sending wings to guide our hearts
Allowing this love to make us high
But it bumps back to earth when we’re apart
Can’t tell you how much you mean to me
Can’t even begin to make you understand
But you’re the only one whose ever set me free
By the smile on your face, or the touch of your hand
I know its hard for you to comprehend
But you mean more to me that I can show
Why can’t we be more than just distant friends
Come kiss me, take me from out of this low.
No I don’t want to lose what you
Really truly mean to me my friend
So if you regret what I’d like to do
I’ll understand if you call this to an end.
Please don’t say we can’t give it a try
I know it could work if we want it to
Please don’t leave me alone here to cry
All I want is to be with you.
Yet we are so many miles apart
And I haven’t seen you in years
Too many times you’ve had a broken heart
And I too have been left in tears
Now that I have found you again
My heart still missed a beat when I hear
Your voice on the phone speak my name
But I’m still clouded with all my fear.
That you’ll never want me to be
With you for all time to know
So my heart will just turn and set you free
And our separate ways we can go.
Its taken several years to find you
Severe long winters is how I feel
Several long years and I still can’t have you
How can this love so wrong feel so real?
The Long Years
Don’t turn away, please let me explain
It is hard to be this far away from home
Its causing me so much pain
So far away from you, I am so alone
Passions could spiral to the sky
Sending wings to guide our hearts
Allowing this love to make us high
But it bumps back to earth when we’re apart
Can’t tell you how much you mean to me
Can’t even begin to make you understand
But you’re the only one whose ever set me free
By the smile on your face, or the touch of your hand
I know its hard for you to comprehend
But you mean more to me that I can show
Why can’t we be more than just distant friends
Come kiss me, take me from out of this low.
No I don’t want to lose what you
Really truly mean to me my friend
So if you regret what I’d like to do
I’ll understand if you call this to an end.
Please don’t say we can’t give it a try
I know it could work if we want it to
Please don’t leave me alone here to cry
All I want is to be with you.
Yet we are so many miles apart
And I haven’t seen you in years
Too many times you’ve had a broken heart
And I too have been left in tears
Now that I have found you again
My heart still missed a beat when I hear
Your voice on the phone speak my name
But I’m still clouded with all my fear.
That you’ll never want me to be
With you for all time to know
So my heart will just turn and set you free
And our separate ways we can go.
Its taken several years to find you
Severe long winters is how I feel
Several long years and I still can’t have you
How can this love so wrong feel so real?
11 March 2009
Thinking on things
Recently, I was talking to a friend of mine about love. The one thing that I am still working on fixing the one thing about myself that I regret. I fall in love easily and not with the most honest of guys. Well, I told my friend that I'm polyamorous. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/polyamorous
I don't think he understood what the word meant, and he called me a filthy whore. Granted there are a lot of things about me, that even I find vulgar but this isn't one of them. Let me explain this a little bit so that you understand me better.
For me, I believe that love should be given freely, and that it shouldn't be kept to just one person. If you think about it, everyone loves multiple people. But not everyone has a loving relationship with multiple people. For instance, I love 3 guys, and have a relationship with all 3 of them. They know about each other, and they accept that. I don't have sex with any of them, because that is my choice right now. Again they accept that, and they understand my reasons, which I will share here with you. I don't have sex at the moment with anyone, not because of an STD or HIV/AIDS, but because I feel that right now at this point in my life, sex isn't what I need to have a fulfilling life. I don't have sex because I'm too eager for it, (I almost said because I'm too easy lol). It's all too easy to confuse love with sexual love and lust. Trust me when I say that I don't need sex to have love. Besides lust can turn a person into a stalker real quick, and that's just messy to explain to people.
I want people to understand that just because I am polyamorous, that I'm not a whore, a slut, skank, whatever. I'm just a normal guy with a lot of complicated things going on, like everyone else.
I don't think he understood what the word meant, and he called me a filthy whore. Granted there are a lot of things about me, that even I find vulgar but this isn't one of them. Let me explain this a little bit so that you understand me better.
For me, I believe that love should be given freely, and that it shouldn't be kept to just one person. If you think about it, everyone loves multiple people. But not everyone has a loving relationship with multiple people. For instance, I love 3 guys, and have a relationship with all 3 of them. They know about each other, and they accept that. I don't have sex with any of them, because that is my choice right now. Again they accept that, and they understand my reasons, which I will share here with you. I don't have sex at the moment with anyone, not because of an STD or HIV/AIDS, but because I feel that right now at this point in my life, sex isn't what I need to have a fulfilling life. I don't have sex because I'm too eager for it, (I almost said because I'm too easy lol). It's all too easy to confuse love with sexual love and lust. Trust me when I say that I don't need sex to have love. Besides lust can turn a person into a stalker real quick, and that's just messy to explain to people.
I want people to understand that just because I am polyamorous, that I'm not a whore, a slut, skank, whatever. I'm just a normal guy with a lot of complicated things going on, like everyone else.
05 March 2009
Prop 8 Under Fire
I am sure that many of you have been following todays events concerning Proposition 8 (a.k.a. Gay-Marriage Ban). I for one who am still on the fence about gay marriage, as I don't think anyone needs a piece of paper to prove their loving emotions for one another, am with the people on this. I suppose that since the people have elected Obama, we should expect change. I haven't exactly followed all of this hooplah from its inception, I have however been supporting Gay Rights since the untimely and wicked death of Matthew Shepard. And this just happens to be one of my greater causes.
Sure some of you have stronger feelings on this than I. However, I think that we should stand together and stand firm. We are a minority, and not a very popular one at that. In light of all the drama, back-biting, and even down right problems that have stemmed from our community, we still stand together and fight for what we believe in. Congrats to you all if you believe this is something you want to do.
However, this is not what I was going to write. The issue of Prop 8 was brought before California's Supreme Court today, and there was a lot of heated discussion on this. Now the Supreme court has 90 days to issue forth their judgement. Let's all hope that it is over-turned.
Sure some of you have stronger feelings on this than I. However, I think that we should stand together and stand firm. We are a minority, and not a very popular one at that. In light of all the drama, back-biting, and even down right problems that have stemmed from our community, we still stand together and fight for what we believe in. Congrats to you all if you believe this is something you want to do.
However, this is not what I was going to write. The issue of Prop 8 was brought before California's Supreme Court today, and there was a lot of heated discussion on this. Now the Supreme court has 90 days to issue forth their judgement. Let's all hope that it is over-turned.
Unintelligent music
I recently read that certain types of music can make a person "unintelligent". Though I question that theory. Mostly, because I wonder where musicians actually fit into this. Okay, I'm tone deaf and yet I play so beautifully, as I am often told. Does this make me unintelligent? I don't think so. Granted perhaps I am a savant with it comes to musical talent. Though I would like to point out that isn't not the music that make people unintelligent. I place the blame fully on the educational system.
I play the harp, one of the hardest instruments to learn to play and to actually play. I never took a lesson, never watched anyone play it. I just picked it up and could play it. I find the music of the harp to be quite soothing, its can be quite calming for those that have a high stress threshold.
I play the harp, one of the hardest instruments to learn to play and to actually play. I never took a lesson, never watched anyone play it. I just picked it up and could play it. I find the music of the harp to be quite soothing, its can be quite calming for those that have a high stress threshold.
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