11 March 2009

Thinking on things

Recently, I was talking to a friend of mine about love. The one thing that I am still working on fixing the one thing about myself that I regret. I fall in love easily and not with the most honest of guys. Well, I told my friend that I'm polyamorous. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/polyamorous
I don't think he understood what the word meant, and he called me a filthy whore. Granted there are a lot of things about me, that even I find vulgar but this isn't one of them. Let me explain this a little bit so that you understand me better.
For me, I believe that love should be given freely, and that it shouldn't be kept to just one person. If you think about it, everyone loves multiple people. But not everyone has a loving relationship with multiple people. For instance, I love 3 guys, and have a relationship with all 3 of them. They know about each other, and they accept that. I don't have sex with any of them, because that is my choice right now. Again they accept that, and they understand my reasons, which I will share here with you. I don't have sex at the moment with anyone, not because of an STD or HIV/AIDS, but because I feel that right now at this point in my life, sex isn't what I need to have a fulfilling life. I don't have sex because I'm too eager for it, (I almost said because I'm too easy lol). It's all too easy to confuse love with sexual love and lust. Trust me when I say that I don't need sex to have love. Besides lust can turn a person into a stalker real quick, and that's just messy to explain to people.
I want people to understand that just because I am polyamorous, that I'm not a whore, a slut, skank, whatever. I'm just a normal guy with a lot of complicated things going on, like everyone else.