A poem that I wrote

This is a song really that I wrote to play on my harp. I've been composing the melody for it, and just thought I would share this with you.

The Long Years
Don’t turn away, please let me explain
It is hard to be this far away from home
Its causing me so much pain
So far away from you, I am so alone

Passions could spiral to the sky
Sending wings to guide our hearts
Allowing this love to make us high
But it bumps back to earth when we’re apart

Can’t tell you how much you mean to me
Can’t even begin to make you understand
But you’re the only one whose ever set me free
By the smile on your face, or the touch of your hand

I know its hard for you to comprehend
But you mean more to me that I can show
Why can’t we be more than just distant friends
Come kiss me, take me from out of this low.

No I don’t want to lose what you
Really truly mean to me my friend
So if you regret what I’d like to do
I’ll understand if you call this to an end.

Please don’t say we can’t give it a try
I know it could work if we want it to
Please don’t leave me alone here to cry
All I want is to be with you.

Yet we are so many miles apart
And I haven’t seen you in years
Too many times you’ve had a broken heart
And I too have been left in tears

Now that I have found you again
My heart still missed a beat when I hear
Your voice on the phone speak my name
But I’m still clouded with all my fear.

That you’ll never want me to be
With you for all time to know
So my heart will just turn and set you free
And our separate ways we can go.

Its taken several years to find you
Severe long winters is how I feel
Several long years and I still can’t have you
How can this love so wrong feel so real?

Thinking on things

Recently, I was talking to a friend of mine about love. The one thing that I am still working on fixing the one thing about myself that I regret. I fall in love easily and not with the most honest of guys. Well, I told my friend that I'm polyamorous. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/polyamorous
I don't think he understood what the word meant, and he called me a filthy whore. Granted there are a lot of things about me, that even I find vulgar but this isn't one of them. Let me explain this a little bit so that you understand me better.
For me, I believe that love should be given freely, and that it shouldn't be kept to just one person. If you think about it, everyone loves multiple people. But not everyone has a loving relationship with multiple people. For instance, I love 3 guys, and have a relationship with all 3 of them. They know about each other, and they accept that. I don't have sex with any of them, because that is my choice right now. Again they accept that, and they understand my reasons, which I will share here with you. I don't have sex at the moment with anyone, not because of an STD or HIV/AIDS, but because I feel that right now at this point in my life, sex isn't what I need to have a fulfilling life. I don't have sex because I'm too eager for it, (I almost said because I'm too easy lol). It's all too easy to confuse love with sexual love and lust. Trust me when I say that I don't need sex to have love. Besides lust can turn a person into a stalker real quick, and that's just messy to explain to people.
I want people to understand that just because I am polyamorous, that I'm not a whore, a slut, skank, whatever. I'm just a normal guy with a lot of complicated things going on, like everyone else.

Prop 8 Under Fire

I am sure that many of you have been following todays events concerning Proposition 8 (a.k.a. Gay-Marriage Ban). I for one who am still on the fence about gay marriage, as I don't think anyone needs a piece of paper to prove their loving emotions for one another, am with the people on this. I suppose that since the people have elected Obama, we should expect change. I haven't exactly followed all of this hooplah from its inception, I have however been supporting Gay Rights since the untimely and wicked death of Matthew Shepard. And this just happens to be one of my greater causes.
Sure some of you have stronger feelings on this than I. However, I think that we should stand together and stand firm. We are a minority, and not a very popular one at that. In light of all the drama, back-biting, and even down right problems that have stemmed from our community, we still stand together and fight for what we believe in. Congrats to you all if you believe this is something you want to do.
However, this is not what I was going to write. The issue of Prop 8 was brought before California's Supreme Court today, and there was a lot of heated discussion on this. Now the Supreme court has 90 days to issue forth their judgement. Let's all hope that it is over-turned.

Unintelligent music

I recently read that certain types of music can make a person "unintelligent". Though I question that theory. Mostly, because I wonder where musicians actually fit into this. Okay, I'm tone deaf and yet I play so beautifully, as I am often told. Does this make me unintelligent? I don't think so. Granted perhaps I am a savant with it comes to musical talent. Though I would like to point out that isn't not the music that make people unintelligent. I place the blame fully on the educational system.
I play the harp, one of the hardest instruments to learn to play and to actually play. I never took a lesson, never watched anyone play it. I just picked it up and could play it. I find the music of the harp to be quite soothing, its can be quite calming for those that have a high stress threshold.